The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me

I fucked up. I fucked up really badly my life, or at least that’s how I feel right now. Anyone could argue that’s not that bad, someone experienced much worse and I am only an ungrateful little child. Well, I have to agree with them, things could be much worse, yet I still suffer pretty badly in this little piece of hell that I created to myself. The fact, that makes the matter worse, is that only I am to blame, not some else or even life. Well that’s enough bitching, I am trying to be positive here and make things better, not to dwell into despair. The purpose of this blog to write to myself, as I am trying to fix my life. To remind me how I felt, how I progress or regress as time goes by. My intention is just to write, somehow, I just feel the urge to write. I never really used forums or posted things on random YouTube videos, but now it just feels right. That’s all for the first post, it is not unlikely it is just a sudden sentiment and this is my last post.